Ouote of the day in view of things I've been doing

"It's not true that life is one damn thing after another; it is one damn thing over and over."

Edna St. Vincent Millay
(1892-1950)

Perfect fan

burdened wings

We carry with us that which has passed, that which is still now, that which is yet to come…
no wonder we are kneeling with eyes looking at the sky.

Quote

When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy. When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.
~Kahlil Gibran

Today's state of mind

Pursuit Of Happyness

There I go again, same problem of Insomnia. Can you believe it? I slept this morning at 7 and got up 3 hours later. Now, I'm having this obnoxious hang over in my head. I'm sure this time my head is going to burst into two!

Anyway, so what was I doing last night? Couldn't possibly figured out anything else than watching the downloaded movie- Pursuit of Happyness (a Will Smith and Thandie Newton flick) at 3am this morning. (hahaa curse my vampire nature)

I remember thinking, before even starting the movie, how much that title appealed to me. The pursuit of happiness. I think the concept of happiness is just that: a concept. A theory - something that simply does not exist. Perhaps there are fleeting moments of happiness, but they are only the result of immersing yourself so completely in a moment that you choose to block out the natural progression of your thoughts. But for one to truly exist in a simple state of happiness - to just BE happy - indefinitely? That, I believe, is impossible.

I think it is against human nature to be completely happy, because happiness goes hand in hand with contentment, and who is ever really satisfied with the status quo? Who is ever content enough with what he or she has? It's human nature to constantly want - more and more. To want to better yourself, your situation, your surroundings. To think, "Yes, I have a great job, a great home, a loving family, this and that, and thank God for all of it, but if only I could get a raise, or maybe get that bonus, that promotion, a new roof, a better car, a guarantee for my children's education, so on and so forth." Nothing is ever ENOUGH. You accomplish one dream, and you immediately develop a new one. Just to keep going. To give life meaning; flavor.

It's like missing. You are always missing something or someone wherever you are - you'll never be able to find yourself NOT missing. There will always be something/someone to miss, wherever you are and whatever you're doing. Again, human nature.

And this morning when I opened the DC supplementary newspaper, my eyes went straight to the quote "A person is never happy except at the price of some ignorance" -Anatole France. That's a quite remarkable saying which made me ponder sometimes ignoring few things is indeed a bliss. And despite it all, it's the most natural thing in the world to 'pursue' happiness from unhappiness. To convince yourself that there are thousands of people out there who are not surrounded by all that happiness, contentment, satisfaction, and that it's all just around you.

And those few moments of fleeting happiness you experience every once in a while, dotting your life like precise punctuation, there when needed - those are the moments that make the pursuit worth it.

And you sit back, and tell yourself, "I'm happy. I'm really, truly happy, for this one second in time, so happy I feel like I'm going to burst."

Sometimes even I don't understand what I mean. Oh whatever! LOL

today

knowledgeproof

a proof against knowledge
is absurd…
yet
desirable.
for it protects us
from our own minds.
and re-designs
our thinking.

Silliness

Bugs Bunny once said, "Don't take life too seriously. You'll never get out alive."


That rabbit knows what he's talking about.

Sure, it's hard to remind yourself of this sometimes, with all the depression you see around you and the horror your hear on the news, but you HAVE to find it in you to take it easy, otherwise the ride will only ever get bumpier. And there are enough potholes in the road to start off with, so there you go. And thats what I am actively trying to do lately.

I am the Queen of Silliness (ask those who know me better). I can amuse myself while lying on the floor of my room, staring at the ceiling fan (go round and round, round and round, round and round...). I like to test how long I can keep jumping from one bed to its sister bed before falling and twisting an ankle. I love, still, building fortresses with bed covers and pillows and cushions, then hiding inside with a book and flashlight. And of course, producing strang, scary noises that are aimed at scaring the hell out of my brother in the next room. hahaa

And hey! its not just me! To note it up about the conversation I had with one of my friend Srini on how silly things we talk and do just to ward off our tensions.

naaz: lets have vodka ek ek peg... bhuladenge saare dukhon ko
srini: okay, I have scotch n bacardi also...mere partner ka he...
srini: aur khatam karke paani bhar denge
naaz: lol... toh laooo....fullltooosssh peeenge
srini: heres for u
cheers
bottoms up karte he
burrrrrrrr...do do window kaha se agaye
aikkk
do do naaz are wahh
ha ha
aiiikkkkkkkkkkkk
phir se do do
loag kehte hee me sharaaabiii hunn
nasha sharab me hota tho nachti bootlle
naaz: bahut pee liye re tu....ab bus...mujhe de
srini: hai...thoda pina
khatam matt karnaa
aikkkkk
oyeee
u passed out kya

I admit it! That way way silly.
And I am adamant about refusing to grow up.

I strongly prescribe the silly doses described above. Translation: "go nuts and do it with style". The fact remains that, the crazier you act, the saner you will remain. It has been tried and tested and take it from me, everyone likes a crazy person.

"The......wipers on the bus go swish swish swish, swish swish swish, swish swish swish...The wipers on the bus go swish swish swish, ALL DAY LONG!!!!!" And my car's wipers go swish, zingg, _____, swing___ (stucked)! Ah! 'cause they aren't working properly! This reminds me to give my car for servicing. Will give it tomorrow. yeah

Only One

In this awakening sleep
we daily walk
there is only one dream that counts…
meaning.