A hollow state of mind

"I am not in this world to live up to other people's expectations, nor do I feel that the world must live up to mine."

- Fritz Perls

"Too much of a good thing is wonderful."

- Mae West

"To err is human, but to really foul things up requires a computer."

- Someone, I forget who.

Naaz's To Do List for a boring day like Today

1. Ignore all those troublesome things which are on mind.
   
2. Kill someone.
   
3. Find medication for out-of-control temper. Stop snapping at random strangers who piss me off. Stop getting so pissed off. I am aging over here.
4. Get new nose - one which doesn't sneeze. This nose I have SUCKS.
5. Seduce someone. I am bored. I have nothing else to do.
6. Start studying albeit.
7. And STOP THINKING about stupid things!
   

To be continued.....

.....

Continuation:

1. Don't spill anything on your kurta.
2. Stop eating that damn bournville. I hate bournville. And I didn't earn it anyway.
3. Stop thinking about the ice cream in the freezer.
   
4. Stop twirling hair.
5. Stop wasting time on ORKUT and FACEBOOK!
6. Stop adding shit to this list.

the insidious evil of procrastination

a

complacent belief

that

'there is plenty of time'

is

perhaps

THE MOST

effective of all

FALLACIES

in wrecking

MY LIFE

another mid-night-coherence-parallel lines

we all walk the same paths

yet

we never meet in our journeys

but with ourselves

eventually

the rest....are only acquaintances

yet sometimes I think that nothing is to be known

damnation of memory

an act of death
with hopes of renewal

for

our memory is

not
forgetful
nor forgiving

emotional trauma

Help me out!

Lately, I've been going through lots and lots of emotions.

Emotions I never thought I would ever go through. You know the feeling when you think that you have achieved supremacy over your feelings and think that you have managed to control all your feelings, to realize later that you don't know a thing about yourself and who you are?

corner of the room

the mind explodes...

pieces of hopes

and

dreams

are shuttered everywhere

in the

only

empty place

in the corner of the room

AAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Dil-e-har qatra hai saaz-e-anal bahar

hum uske hai hamara poochna kya?

Life....an Ugly truth

Life is an ugly truth.
living on lies
and
lies
we never
live

Let me elaborate

'We are raised on lies.'

We are told that we can be anything and do anything we set our minds to. We are constantly rewarded and positively reinforced. We are told that we are special. We always win, as we’re sheltered from failure.

And during the process we are never taught to reward ourselves, our spiritual, intellectual selves, our being.

We grow up and learn the hard truth about this ugly world we live in. Those who cannot handle it either escape the world through various outlets to feel that reward, that childhood sense of gratification, or they check themselves out completely!

We don’t know what it’s like to push ourselves to our limits, to come close to death, to fully experience life. The closest we ever come in this manufactured world is when our hearts are broken seemingly beyond any repair, when we wake up the following morning with a traumatic hangover like thing stucked to our brains. We try to get a taste of life by running away from it.

And the tragedy still remains - we keep runing away in fear into a darkness more aphotic than anything...

There is one explanation that I believe could be true, and that is, those who live in fear are only afraid because they have not yet lived. The difference between those who are driven by self-preservation and those driven by fear is that the former act to protect the life they already posses and the latter act to delay the inevitable in order to find a life worth preserving!