Monday, August 31, 2009

emotional trauma

Help me out!

Lately, I've been going through lots and lots of emotions.
Emotions I never thought I would ever go through. You know the feeling when you think that you have achieved supremacy over your feelings and think that you have managed to control all your feelings, to realize later that you don't know a thing about yourself and who you are?

corner of the room



the mind explodes...
pieces of hopes
and
dreams
are shuttered everywhere
in the
only
empty place
in the corner of the room

Saturday, August 22, 2009

AAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Dil-e-har qatra hai saaz-e-anal bahar
hum uske hai hamara poochna kya?

Friday, August 14, 2009

Life....an Ugly truth

Life is an ugly truth.
living on lies
and
lies
we never
live

Let me elaborate

'We are raised on lies.'

We are told that we can be anything and do anything we set our minds to. We are constantly rewarded and positively reinforced. We are told that we are special. We always win, as we’re sheltered from failure.

And during the process we are never taught to reward ourselves, our spiritual, intellectual selves, our being.

We grow up and learn the hard truth about this ugly world we live in. Those who cannot handle it either escape the world through various outlets to feel that reward, that childhood sense of gratification, or they check themselves out completely!

We don’t know what it’s like to push ourselves to our limits, to come close to death, to fully experience life. The closest we ever come in this manufactured world is when our hearts are broken seemingly beyond any repair, when we wake up the following morning with a traumatic hangover like thing stucked to our brains. We try to get a taste of life by running away from it.

And the tragedy still remains - we keep runing away in fear into a darkness more aphotic than anything...

There is one explanation that I believe could be true, and that is, those who live in fear are only afraid because they have not yet lived. The difference between those who are driven by self-preservation and those driven by fear is that the former act to protect the life they already posses and the latter act to delay the inevitable in order to find a life worth preserving!