grasp...

fingertips…
most sensitive to touch…yet
it takes the entire hand
to hold and protect.
much like love.
and loyalty.

when infinity is wounded
in its very heart
we become aware
we are not loved anymore

Itinerary of my Life

This past month, I’ve had plenty to blog about, but no time to indulge in the therapeutic pastime that blogging has become.

To put it mildly, it’s been a pretty busy especially these 'weeks'.

In no particular order, I’ve:

• NOT Slept. Not more than a total of 2 hours. In 3 weeks. I know, I have developed a serious chronic insomnia.
• Fallen down a flight of stairs, passed out for about 4.3 seconds and experienced a mild concussion.
• Spent way too much time staring the rain drops falling down on bemire through my room's window . Those are minutes – no, hours – that I was delusionally thinking on silly senseless things.
• Working madly on the report which I need to submit by the end of August.
• Belly danced my way in front of the mirror into a minor cardiac arrest, it felt like.
• Dashed a car while reversing my car back during parking. And called the car's owner an idiot for parking his car at wrong place and all while the policeman around surreptitiously ignored my existence, inspite it was that car owner's mistake.
• Spent an entire 30 minutes fuming at the incompetence of a lab attender from my lab, and when the 30 minutes were over, reached the conclusion that I require anger management therapy. ASAP.
• Gotten married, apparently, and immediately produced 13 children, all of whom have very eerie smiles. (Oooohhh, you’re gonna LOVE this one.) You see, I have been thinking a lot on this matter of producing a large spawn LOL, least after having observed my own brother for raising three monsterous kids.
• Been hired as a baby sitter(can you believe it??) where all I have to do is play there and scream at those monsterous creatures (I am so good at screaming). And spend my precious time looking after them (why on earth am doing this after all?). I seriously got to find some way out.
• Decided that this year, the priorities are reading novels, reading novels, reading novels and reading novels. Boredom will never be an option.
  

In conclusion, I vow to provide detailed posts explaining all of the above. Especially, the baby sitting stories where those three *ahmmm monsters...* woops, did I tell monsters...Oh, I mean angels are making my life a very happy place to live. *smiles forcibly*

Game

Life...
a strange game.
Sometimes the only winning move
is not to
Play...

Appreciate

I guess I could be really pissed off about what happened to me, but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain. And I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will someday.

Can you make out from which movie that quote was? I remember, when I first watched that movie I couldn't make head or tail of those words. I guess now, I understand.

Oh I wish...

Sometimes I wish I were a 'Cloud'
to wonder freely away
from my skin
from my mind
from my thoughts.
And when I get tired
I would rest on the 'Rainbow'
thus I shall be
the most colorful
the most amazing
the most precious 'Cloud'
ever seen.
Too bad,
I am just 'myself'

Life and death

Death
is just a matter of time...
Life
is a time that matters temporarily

I'm with you

Im standing on the bridge
Im waiting on the dark
I thought that you'd be here
by now
Ther's nothing but the rain
no foot steps on the ground
Im listening but ther's
no sound

Isn't anyone trying to find me
Won't somebody come take me home

it's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I
Im with you
Im with you

Im looking for a place
Im searching for a face
Is anybody here
I know

Cause nothing's going right And everything's a mess
And no one likes to be
alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me
Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I
Im with you
Im with you

Oh

Why is every thing so confusing? Maybe Im just out of my mind

Yeah yeah yeah...

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't Know Who You are
But I
Im with you
Im with you
Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't Know Who You are
But I
Im with you
Im with you

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't Know Who You are
But I
Im with you
Im with you

Useless pieces of information

Cats have over one hundred vocal sounds, while dogs only have about ten. (Naaz's take: I can think of a few cat-lover buddies of mine who would be interested in this random piece of info.)

The common goldfish is the only animal that can see both infra-red and ultraviolet light. (Naaz's take: I will be using this piece of information the next time someone tells me I have the attention span/memory of a gold fish. Somehow, I'll be able to incorporate this info, I'm sure of it.)

It takes a lobster approximately seven years to grow to be one pound. (I've never tried lobster. I wonder if I'd like it? Is it too fishy??)

Leonardo Da Vinci invented the scissors. (Naaz's take: Perfect example of random piece of info that is pretty useless. Except now, I'll be thinking of Leo everytime I pick up a pair of scissors, I'm sure of it!)

An iguana can stay under water for 28 minutes. (Naaz's take: Attacked by an iguana? Thinking of how to save yourself? We don't recommend death by drowning. It would take a while.)

And you know what? I came to know today from a magazine that South Africa is the only country with three official capitals: Pretoria, Cape Town and Bloemfontein.

Tired, simply tired of everything...

I'm tired
Tired of everything

This intense feeling is killing me almost, the feeling of ignominy is roaring high inside of me; so high that it is not letting me do what I can and what I really want!

Oh God Oh! How I really wish I disappear from this world...

Some kind of letter

I read this long time ago, and infact I have posted this earlier. I still find it interesting. In case you haven't read it please do, and don't jump to the end, read every line of it.
Naaz
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Hi,
As you got up this morning,

I watched you and hoped you would talk to me,
even if it was just a few words, asking my opinion or thanking me for
something good that happened in your life yesterday - but I noticed you were to busy trying to find the right outfit to put on and wear to work.

I waited again.

When you ran around the house getting ready I knew there would be a few minutes for you to stop and say hello, but you were too busy.
At one point you had to wait fifteen minutes with nothing to do except sit in a chair. Then I saw you spring to your feet. I thought you wanted to talk to me
but you ran to the phone and called a friend to get the latest gossip.

I watched as you went to work and I waited patiently all day long.
With all your activities I guess you were too busy to say anything to me.

I noticed that before lunch you looked around, maybe you felt embarrassed to talk to me, you glanced three or four tables over and you noticed some of your friends talking to me briefly before they ate, but you didn't.

That's okay. There is still more time left, and I have hope that you will talk to me... yet you went home and it seems as if you had lots of things to do.

After a few of them were done you turned on the TV,
I don't know if you like TV or not, just about anything goes there and you spent a lot of time each day in front of it, not thinking about anything - just enjoying the show.

I waited patiently again as you watched the TV and ate your meal...
but again you didn't talk to me.

Bedtime - I guess you felt too tired.
After you said goodnight to your family you plopped into bed and fell asleep in no time.

That's okay
because you may not realize
that I am always there for you.
I've got patience
more than you will ever know.
I even want to teach you
how to be patient with others as well.
I love you so much
that I wait everyday for a nod,
prayer or thought or a thankful part of your heart.
It is hard to have a one-sided conversation.

Well you are getting up again and once again I will wait with nothing but love for you hoping that today you will give me some time.
Have a nice day!
Your friend,
God

AM OVER IT!!

blind folded

weary with REALITY
we are aware
we need some DREAMS
to cope with it.
we fold the corners of the eye
and hold the magic
until it gets too OLD!

wondering....

when do we grow up
to be
so little
of what we once were
and so much
of what we never wanted to be?...

Damn! So very apt! LOL

I believe I can fly

PS: Oh did'nt I tell you that I like Madonna's songs too. And this one is my fav! I just love the video!!! and ofcourse even the song